And I have a lot of things to get done these days!!

Prioritizing PLEASURE.

In the morning, I tune in and feel in my heart what I am inspired to create and get accomplished (I do it also often at the beginning of the week for the whole week). What is truly important for my heart?

I may write it down or not. I may draw an oracle card or not.

Whatever is needed to tune in deeper into myself to align with my natural flow.

And then I prioritize pleasure and take as much time as needed to nourish myself and to…

Some things are COOKING!

(a big picture life update 360')

When I was 7 months pregnant, and we went some place by car, I remember I was sitting on the back passenger seat and a strong feeling overcame me that the second soul will be coming through us. I was a bit surprised, as the first one was not born yet into this reality. "Let's see", I smiled.

In the last few weeks, I feel it strongly again. It's like a background song in anything I do. I feel this other being energetically, not yet born, yet already here. Similarly to how I felt Alisia since a year before she was conceived. And yes I feel it with every cell - I want the 2nd child…

Some things are COOKING!

(a big picture life update 360')

When I was 7 months pregnant, and we went some place by car, I remember I was sitting on the back passenger seat and a strong feeling overcame me that the second soul will be coming through us. I was a bit surprised, as the first one was not born yet into this reality. "Let's see", I smiled.

In the last few weeks, I feel it strongly again. It's like a background song in anything I do. I feel this other being energetically, not yet born, yet already here. Similarly to how I felt Alisia since a year before she was conceived. And yes I feel it with every cell - I want the 2nd child…

I woke up this morning feeling energetically full and rested, a feeling I haven't been having to this degree since about 3 months. With all the beauty that a child brings into my/our life, I admit that it is also quite a challenge.

The main challenge in my experience at this stage is... SLEEPLESS NIGHTS

Last night she…

Mother's Heart

It's the most loving, giving and all forgiving heart in the whole world.

We all come from a Mother. Mother in a physical sense and Mother in a nature/energy sense which includes both physical mother & father and beyond.

With my physical mother, I developed quite a conflict during my upbringing…

As we are transitioning into a new phase in our family life because Alisia is no longer a baby, she is becoming more of a toddler, and since a couple of weeks she goes to an amazing day care, this suddenly opened up a lot of space!

After 9 months of day-in day-out being a full-time mom, having a prolonged ME-time feels like a forgotten paradise. I so enjoyed the first days of silence, self-nourishment, rest, walks, baths, taking time for E-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g.

And now, since a few days I feel the desire to PLAY. To play with…

What happened on Crete 2 weeks ago is still strongly vibrating in me.

Stepping out of everyday life, stopping for an extended moment, re-aligning, releasing what's no longer true, opening up to new and unknown... and walking with trust.

Processes that unfolded there invited me into…

It's 5am on Crete.
Gorgeous and bright full moon.

Some of us made it to Crete yesterday. What a journey it was over the past few months. For me, for the team, for participants. Corona created quite a havoc in people's consciousness. From 20+ participants we had registered for each of the two retreats we are down to less than 10. Ok, I say to myself, it also has its benefits. Small intimate groups - we will go even deeper than ever before, I feel, as those who finally will make it have the calling that is so strong…

You know this feeling when everything just falls into place, like multiple pieces of a puzzle finding their place on the blanc canvas. When your body dances before you turn on your favorite music

So many synchronicities are happening, and abundance is flowing, all in preparation for female retreats on Crete.

I started getting downloads during early mornings, being asked to sit in silence and receive. I'm listening.

There are thoughts, there are emotions, and there is some-(no)-thing alive underneath it all.

This no-thing is…

Started today with receiving a massage. Such a beautiful one. I found this amazing lady who lives 7 min away from where I live. She knows how to touch, exactly how I like it. Soft, conscious touch that reaches deep, all the way through. I travelled places during this massage, visions like caleidoscope. She told me that it's such a pleasure to massage someone who can receive that much. We are clearly a good match. And I can relate... when I give a bodywork session and the person really receives, it's double as fulfilling to give.

Then lunch with friends and an open conversation about intimacy/sex, and reaching next levels in…

Today, Dylan and I had a reflection about how our energy that is composed of how we feel, what we think, if there is harmony or not between us as parents, impacts how our baby feels and behaves.

Harmony as Energy. Not a pretense of harmony.

Cause this tiny being feels what's true, what's really there.

When we are agitated, she becomes agitated. Not necessarily immediately, it can take some delay, but it will surely show.

When we are not in harmony with each other, she becomes…

You're the biggest HEART opener ever!

And not only opener, but also a keeper.

Thanks to you I feel so much love, and also thanks to you I feel so much pain. It's like everything is amplified 100-fold. I am touched to tears when I look at you as much as when I look at some other gifts of nature. I feel pain when I read about other children not growing up in safe environments, without parents, or loving caretakers. I feel a knife-sharp pain when I…

Each time I want to post about something I love, I enjoy, I am excited about, at that very same moment a thought arises that my messages might be causing pain to someone who longs for the same and doesn't have it for one or another reason. I actually do feel pain myself on behalf of these people, and it's like I step over it and post anyway, because "it's not mine". But the more I feel into it, the more I realize that it is also mine, because I feel it too, even if it is on behalf of others.

And what is mine and not mine anyway?

When I was pregnant and I was sharing my…

I remember creating you in my consciousness a few years ago, when travelling the world out of my suitcase and being single.

I was very clear what I was longing for.

That we would resonate on such a deep level with each other that being together would feel like family.

That you would have an open heart and our connection would have its roots in the Heart.

I longed to be proud of you.

I wished to create a family and wanted my man to want it too.

It was very important that you would fully embrace my Tantra work.

And that you would not have financial glitches in your consciousness, like stinginess or issues with having money.

I knew I would recognize you. I would feel it.

You did not make…

Let me share something very special with you today which I discovered through my own intimate exploration with my beloved. It could be directly applicable to you if you are currently in a relationship or having a lover, OR it may become applicable at some point if you are single at this moment in time.

Quality of intimate life is very important for me as it is a PLACE where LOVE is being cultivated and exchanged on the energetic & physical levels. Pretty much all other needs I can fulfill outside the relationship. Sexuality related needs are limited to….

I wish every woman who prepares for giving birth has access to this knowledge.

When I was pregnant, I was guided by a very experienced midwife with about 20+ years of experience in home giving births. She knew at every stage what she was doing and especially during the most important moment, I could trust her completely, and thanks to her I could give natural birth at home (and not freak out! ;-)). My gratitude and respect for her skills & being. 🙏

There is one knowledge that I wish I also had while preparing for giving birth. That a woman can prepare her Yoni during pregnancy by…

I look at my little girl and I see my grandma in her. My mom's mother. Since Alisia is born, I think about grandma almost every day. It's not that Alisia looks like her, but there is something very similar between children and older people.

My grandma was known to be a hooligan. When she was a teenager, she liked to dress up as a man, date with girls and kiss them in the dark. She always had a music instrument with her and was a center of entertainment, singing Russian folk songs and getting the crowds to sing with her. No one could beat her playing cards, she knew a way to win. She did not have a degree, only middle school, afterwards she had to work as she was the eldest sibling and their family was poor. She was strong and always worked in jobs where she could move heavy stuff. She resolved things physically too. When she married, she also physically fought with her husband, she physically defended her children at school if teachers screwed up. Lots of fire. 🔥🔥🔥Yet, people said she was…

The source of

Pleasure and pain

Pride and fame

Nourishment for a child

Joy for a man

Big and small

Countless shapes

Wise and unique

Never the same

BRE💗STS

Celebrating recovery today. 😇✨
3 days after…

Are you focusing on what is NOT working?
Or are you focusing on what IS working?

In a way, it's easier to focus on what is not there because it lives so strongly in the collective, and for many people it became a strong habit. Yet, no matter how well you name or analyse what you are missing, it doesn't seem to improve.

It's because we attract into our life only things that are vibrating on the same frequency as we ARE. And when we focus on what we do NOT have, we keep attracting NOT having it.

The biggest GIFT in relating to anyone or anything is…

After a high creative and ecstatic wave over the past few weeks, this morning I woke up feeling sadness. Some things were weighing heavily on my heart. One by one, a couple of people emerged in my consciousness echoing with pain.

I could choose to get up and raise my energy in order to vibrate on a different frequency. Or I could go down the rabbit hole and trace the sadness.

I chose the latter.

I started following…