After a high creative and ecstatic wave over the past few weeks, this morning I woke up feeling sadness. Some things were weighing heavily on my heart. One by one, a couple of people emerged in my consciousness echoing with pain.
I could choose to get up and raise my energy in order to vibrate on a different frequency. Or I could go down the rabbit hole and trace the sadness.
I chose the latter.
I started following sadness, feeling it in my body, moving with it, giving it space, giving it voice, allowing tears to roll. And as I followed it deeper and deeper, I touched a space in my heart which held this precious message:
"This heart only wants to LOVE."
"Yes, but..." the mind was fast with all kinds of reasons.
Yet no matter what the mind was saying, the heart was clear: "This heart only wants to LOVE!"
And there I was between the two voices: The voice of Reason and the voice of Heart.
When I followed the voice of reason, it was right, but pain was present. Something inside was contracting like a little wounded bird. And when I followed the voice of heart, I felt joy and freedom, while reason got expanded and became more inclusive.
I chose LOVE.
Sadness and noise in my head subsided. It became still. How powerful it is - to choose... To choose LOVE.
I reached out to the people who I was incomplete with, from the depth of my heart. With a couple of them I shared the message of my heart, and others I invited to have a sharing.
Later today, I held space for "Awakening the Snake" ritual. I realize, of course, that it was not by chance to feel such heaviness in the heart exactly this morning, before holding space for this Tantric ritual (the invitation for Kundalini energy to rise). My heart had to be completely unobstructed for the energy to flow through if I were to hold space for this ritual authentically.
I feel grateful and humble to the wisdom of life energy. It is like a river. It flows freely when the pathway is unobstructed. And if it is obstructed, life energy shows where and how to clear it. 🙏💗
