In preparation for a retreat on Love, Devotion and Dharmic Living. Modules 5&6 of the 1 Year Tantra Program "Expansion into Love".
We are starting this coming Friday.
I feel like the current version of me is going through Death these days.
There is a lot being TOUCHED.
Some deep attachments EXPOSED.
And beliefs RIPPED APART.
Expanding my capacity to hold space for participants of the retreat I've been dreaming to give over the past 2 years?
On DHARMIC LIVING.
Back in August in Israel, when they asked us "Are you willing to put it all on the altar and surrender to live this one and only LIFE from the depths of who you ARE?", I said that I wasn't.
"My daughter", I said "I will not be able to put her on the altar.
I will always measure all of my decisions taking her into account. The rest I can put on the altar."
"She is part of my Dharma. That simple".
And with that I surrender.
The fact that I am not a 24/7 kind of mom who would want to spend all her time with a child /family was clear for me from the start.
My creative spirit travels often and a lot outside of the mother-child or family context. It calls me to hold deep transformational processes. It calls for existential adventure. It calls to be in SERVICE to so many more than just my family.
Alisia's presence is a great teaching to distinguish what's true and what's not because of the strong attachment and bond that we have as a mother and child. This attachment is sometimes like sand in my eyes and I may find myself compromising in ways I would not if it wasn't her. And I realize that motherhood is also about that. About both sweet and bitter compromises.
And then comes personal relationship, which has so many aspects. In some aspects, it is storming these days. Are we at the next edge of Evolution? What is needed for our next ALIGNED upgrade that would take into account who we are TODAY and not who we were even just a month ago?
And the snakes are rising
Inviting to let go of what has been known until now and open up for what's yet to come.
With love,
Alexa Mira
