As from the very early age, I was finding myself organizing things for "good" common purpose, and attracting other leaders to do bigger things together.
I never waited for the invitation, or for permission, or for being ready.
In fact, I can not NOT LEAD.
I pioneer ways of being and expressing myself in the world.
I launch NEW things that haven't been there before.
I move FAST and I love co-creating with people who are able to weave with me.
I grow through highs and lows, e v e r y t h i n g serves as fuel for evolution.
I’m not afraid to make mistakes, because taking responsibility is natural for me and I easily forgive myself.
I laugh in the face of resistance and fear. They became my dear friends who show up each time I go next level.
In my earlier years, it used to be a drag to follow or work for someone else, back in the university and later in the corporate world. I noticed that following someone was only possible for me when I'd be deeply inspired by them and aligned with. Then it would work... for a while, until my own unique essence would want to express itself in all freedom again, unattached to anyone or anything else.
I could not figure out why I did not enjoy working as an employee... until I became independent. Leaving the golden cage of the corporate world, life in an expensive penthouse and traveling the world up to 8 times a year, ticking off my bucket list. A jump into being my own boss that I made at the age of 29 felt both scary and exhilarating. Letting go of the golden ballast made me feel light again. It is there and then that my inner creativity started seeing light, and the journey in its true sense really began. In full freedom to be me.
Ever since, I grew as a leader myself and supported many leaders to grow and express their true voice into the world. From Consciousness work to Tantra work, I see many of my former and current students expressing their unique essence as professionals nowadays, and it makes me happy that I could play part in their journey, and they in mine.
As a leader in the field of Tantra, I carry an extra layer of responsibility, because I work with the most taboo energy in the world - SEXUAL ENERGY/ life energy. Most people don't realize how suppressed it is until they start awakening it, and all the "stuff' that used to be in the way for it to fully flow starts showing its face: from religious conditioning to deeply engrained cultural beliefs to collective suppression of pleasure & happiness. It's really sad until it's not.
When SHE wakes up , everything changes.
That's why the church put all kinds of dark labels on it. God forbid anyone come in contact with HER, because you might start SEEING things not as they were told to you to be. So, let's equate it to lust only, and make lust wrong.
As a leader in Tantra, I am bound to be misunderstood by many because the words I use land in the consciousness of someone who has never been or got an authentic transmission in a Tantric field with a totally different meaning. It’s like someone tells you PINEAPPLE while you never tasted it, and you hear MANGO, because you tasted mango and the description of the pineapple makes you think closest about mango.
People who are OPEN for transmission do get me.
In between the words.
My most recent life inquiry and passion as a leader is around leading from & in surrender to Love.
Dharmic Living.
Not “love” defined as “how one should be loving”. I acknowledge the importance of this person-to-person level, and there are plenty of frameworks that target addressing this… from Imago Therapy Approach, to Non-Violent Communication, to Authentic Relating to Ho'opono'pono. But this is not where my passion lies.
Where it gets truly exciting is when I connect to LOVE as a FIERCE FORCE, the Divine expressing itself through me and you, and getting out of our own way for Love to lead. This Love doesn’t care about my or your feeling good as a person… if anything, it will blast any trace of identity into pieces, which may feel like DEATH while being alive.
Earlier today, I met with my dear co-leader Sofie Hendrikx of “The Portal: Leading from Love” program we are offering in Bali this winter (FULL), and we both felt that in order to give it a chance to grasp and embody what it truly means Leading from Love, and to go to next level for ourselves, we have to let all concepts die, dare to step into Unknown and be open for what will be revealed.
How does it look and what does it take… to lead life from LOVE?
