My Body is my Portal. And so is yours.
I'd like to share with you how I transmute and shift my inner states from HEAVY ✸ energy into LIGHT. Let it inspire you to get in touch with your power to move energy and shift states.
This morning, I woke up around 6am with pain in my heart... from all the impressions of the last two weeks, feeling so heavy as if a bulldozer ran over me. I wanted to get up and do my morning yoga practice, but I could not collect myself. It was clear that just lying there like this and feeling the pain won't help or shift anything. I reached out to my iPhone and put on a Spotify playlist "Everything Tantra" with spacious and beautiful music. Then I gently placed my hands on my body and started tuning into the warmth that was coming from my palms. It lasted for about 7-10 minutes. After that, I intuitively placed them around me on the outer parts of my arms, hugging myself. It felt warm and safe.
Unsafety.
This is what my body felt.
From everything I saw, heard, witnessed from my most recent travels.
It impacted my Psyche, and with that made imprints on my Body.
Images of the past few days were arising in my consciousness. From an old lady selling her flowers on the street and being fined by two policemen, to my mother loosing her weight, to the war stories I heard from people who recently lost their beloveds.
When I was there, I felt it, I listened, I asked questions.
But as I landed back in a safe and familiar environment of Belgium, it hit me hard. It felt like no one here can ever understand what's moving through me.
What a privilege we are living here in the West.
Safety. Security. There will be Tomorrow.
Many people in the world have nothing close to this.
My hands were moving slowly and warmly over my body, breath became deeper, and tears started rolling. I weeped about the painful scripts some humans are living. I weeped about the collective pain that is massively happening right in this moment. I weeped about the fact that one day the reality I know and love might not be there any more.
I weeped... and with weeping, my body and breath were happening in convulsions and I started feeling energy flowing.
Warm. Calm. Loving.
After about three quarters of an hour, I felt the strength to roll over to my yoga mat and do my regular practice... one hour Sivananda sequence. With every asana, more tension was released and the body was gently opening up from contraction, the energy was flowing more and more. By the time I finished, I felt clear, calm, soft and ready to meet the day.
My daughter came downstairs at about the same time and lay on me as I was still lying on my back. She wrapped her little arms around me. We cuddled, we breathed, she shared she wanted to be close to me.
Then Dylan came downstairs and we hugged. It felt so beautiful for all three of us to be together in one space, feeling each other, and understanding each other without words.
My Body is my Portal. And so is yours.
It's by moving the energy of what we are feeling through the BODY, with breath, voice and movement, that we can naturally and without suppressing or bypassing acknowledge and feel what wants to be felt and eventually gently and naturally shift our state. We transcend by letting IN, not by letting go.
