Ambitions

I have many ambitions…

To live from my Soul’s calling.

To serve with the Gifts that life gave to me.

To live life in Gratitude.

To continue rooting in Love and living from an open Heart no matter what.

What I don’t have is an ambition to be a “nice person”. Neither to be a “bad person”.

By a “nice person”, I mean the person who lives by the “shoulds”.

By a “bad person” I mean the person who finds pleasure in hurting others.

All these shoulds…

According to oneself.

According to others.

According to society.

According to social norms.

If someone comes to me with an entitlement about what they think I “should” be or do as a person, as a leader, as a teacher, I say thank you, I hear you, but this is not my ambition. If you are inspired to live this way, you have all my understanding, but this doesn’t inspire me even a tiny bit.

Yet, when someone comes from vulnerability, sharing how they feel inside, what story their mind has created, with open questions, I am all ears, and will reveal myself triple.

The path I’m walking is the path of unattached Truth, of Love. (But not the kind of love ‘I do nice to you and you do nice to me’ or ‘romantic love’).

My door doesn’t shut down even in the most painful situations… unless someone deliberately comes to hurt (for which I’ll do triple checks before I make any conclusion).

I’m not afraid to look in the mirror, descend in the underworld and feel all the unpleasant feelings, to learn from my mistakes.

And at the same time, I spot projections like an eagle .

I quickly see the disowned pieces.

I understand that most people find it hard to DESCEND.

Most people find it hard to feel the feelings and rather outsource responsibility for what they feel to the outside world, to other people, to governments, etc.

Most people want to ASCEND very fast into happiness, joy, bliss, power. It’s possible. Just make a shortcut, bypass the very matter that screams to be looked at. For a while it will work.

But… we can’t run from ourselves. The pain, the triggered piece will be mirrored by another source next time. Because all the while the reason hasn’t been outside, but something inside reacts to life. It’s vital to get to the very root of it in order to become free. Managing the outside only prolongs the suffering.

There are many ways to live this life, neither is right or wrong.

Some ways root us deeper in our Identity, while others give us a possibility to know ourselves Outside of it.

What do you choose?