This morning, I woke up before 5am breathing shallow and feeling somewhat anxious. The encounters of the past few days clearly made an impact on me.
A 20+ year old man, the son of a woman I know tried to commit a suicide last week.
A husband of my hairdresser, a man in his 40's, lost and completely closed down, confessed in a short conversation I had with him, that he doesn't see a way out anymore, because of financial pressures and his deep disappointment in life and himself.
A 60+ year old owner of a Thai restaurant who believes that the government wants to get rid of 65+ people by an obligated vaccination campaign, and all he desires is to reach his pension asap and hide with his wife in the warm nest of her family in Thailand.
I woke up connected to these and all the other people who for one or another reason don't see a way forward anymore, who feel deeply unhappy, disappointed, resigned.
I sat down and started breathing deeply, followed by a meditation. Feeling into Space, into Nothingness.
Gratitude started flowing through me.
Gratitude for the opportunity to LIVE this life.
Gratitude for all the ups and downs.
Gratitude for feeling my heart beat.
Gratitude for hearing my beloved's breath next to me.
And for my beautiful daughter sleeping next door.
And for so much more...
How much I wish I could embrace in my HEART all the people who do not see a way forward and are deeply in pain... with all the LOVE I feel for this LIFE and with the KNOWING that each of us has a place in this world... exactly as we ARE.
Images of people coming together in one space and connecting, looking each other in the eyes, remembering the beauty of life through and thanks to each other, giving each other a warm loving embrace and deep understanding, crying in each other's arms and releasing years of accumulated sadness and disappointment, started flooding my consciousness.
I felt tears coming up, tears of "How simple it all is. Why did we humans have to make it so complicated?"
In the last week's Module 1, it was touching to see people melting all of the hardness and mistrust accumulated over the years.
We breathed, we shook, we danced, we cried, we screamed, we were silent, we held and supported each other to re-connect with ourselves.
And right there and then I felt Gratitude, deep deep Gratitude.
It's all possible. People can help each other heal. It can be that simple.
All we humans need is to be SEEN and LOVED so we can find the way back to ourselves again.
I finished meditating and hugged my sleeping partner from the back, with all the love & gratitude I felt in my Heart. He was still asleep, but his energy body immediately responded with Love back. I lay there and bathed in it. Grateful for him, for our amazing daughter, for being able to share my life with them. Knowing deep down that this is to be cherished, every moment, because this too will end one day. Such a precious moment in Eternity. Now.
If you know someone in pain, reach out to them and share your care for them today.
If you love someone, express it to them today.
If you yourself are in need of love and compassion, please feel included in my Heart.
I love you, I see you, and please know that there is always, always, always a way, even when it seems there is none.
Reach out to people you know for support, even if you believe that no one in the whole world is able to help you and you remain silent because of the shame you feel inside. And here I address also all the STRONG people who believe you should be able to do it alone.
We are not meant to be and do it all alone - it's maybe a great and noble idea - but in truth, we are social beings and Love we share with each other is what weaves our collective WELL BEING together.
