For the past few days, I am in a process that I know intimately.
It comes to me every 3-5 years.
I used to call it mid-life crisis (first one hit me at 15yo!!)
I called it a space in-between.
Dissolution of the old and birth of the new.
I also used to call it Liminal Space.
What it is for me today is
RE-ALIGNMENT
I look at each area of my life these days and I notice that it's blossoming.
I've never been met in my relationship like I am met today by my beloved. I choose him totally and to be chosen in totality in return is so powerful.
I am a mother. Silently happy. Fulfilled. With a healthy dose of exhaustion after each weekend. Yet generously blessed with support from the family.
My Tantra work is blossoming. It's the 1st year that I have people on the reserve list. Outside my popular live programs, I could be busy 24/7 with bodywork and coaching requests. Today, I have a privilege to choose my customers and how much I want to serve.
I travel places and do events that inspire me - full on!!!
And YET, for the past few weeks, I've been waking up in the morning, and my soul was not smiling. It felt like I was not fully plugged in, but I could not put a finger on it, and my daily routine was not supportive either. I felt stuck in the "success" rails that I've built myself. My mind started thinking about the future as a continuation of what has been created until now.
I STOPPED.
I BREATHED.
I LISTENED.
For a few days, and even weeks... and am still listening...
I've let go of any "have to's" and any "should's".
And I've started hearing the call...
to go into an even deeper SURRENDER to Life, to Truth
to not be attached to successes that were created
to not hold to anything that worked in the past
but to keep feeling every moment with freshness
to follow the impulses of the now, not based on the past
to respond spontaneously to a full YES and
to say more ruthlessly NO to what is not aligned
And this morning I took a decision...
To surrender to this larger Force to guide me every moment, not only when I give it space, or when it's convenient, but every step of the way.
I am GRATEFUL I can hear its tender whispering.
It is the only 'thing' that makes sense to me.
To be moved by IT.
Photo by Magdalini Straka at the Oak Temple
