“Dance for me”, he said after the whole terrace was filled with orgasmic waves merged with the sun warmth.
I danced under the olive tree while amrita (a Sanskrit word that is also used for female orgasmic liquid) was sweetly running down my legs. Witnessing my hips move softly and my heart expanding and merging with nature. Feeling his gaze on me… mmmhhh what a beautiful moment in eternity.
Sometimes we connect in love all together and sometimes there is a desire to claim and to be just with him, feel him being fully mine and me fully his.
And next moment, witnessing him loving and serving another woman with his presence, his heart, his warmth, his loving eye gaze. And seeing her open and loving response. Their connection deeply touches and inspires me.
Exactly the combination of it all makes me the most grateful person on Earth.
How is this possible?
Before, I’d wonder.
But if we can love each other the 2 of us, why would not it be possible with 3? Or 4 or more?
There is much more happening for me than sharing my man with another woman.
My deepest longing is to let LOVE flow. Love is not mine and not yours. It’s the most beautiful energy on Earth. And it flows when it is honoured and not locked into a concept. When it’s given full freedom to show the way.
At the foundation, each of us needs to feel SAFE. Before this vacation, some doubts creeped into me (“will we be able to be together for 9 days every day?”). I literally took time to hold my little inner girl and ask her what she needs to feel safe to go on this journey. And once I got clarity, I communicated it as such to my two beloveds, who received me with so much tenderness and understanding.
Staying close to my boundaries, needs and desires, and expressing them, as well as communicating any fears or pain that may arise at times without suppressing anything is the recipe that makes it flow.
And of course, it takes 3 to tango in this case. Their openness is equally needed for it all to flow.
Do I get jealous sometimes?
I do.
Jealousy is an invitation for me to look what need is not fulfilled or what desire is not nurtured, which fears are unexpressed.
I stop, I listen inside, and I express it.
This dissolves the energy of jealousy and opens me to an even deeper layer of love, gratitude and appreciation.
“This is what I need and desire, beloveds, to feel love flowing for me. And how about you?” I’d say.
They share their needs and desires and we allow for all these energies to dance in Truth.
