I know what I want and I am not shy to ask for it.
Do I always get it the way I want it? No.
But it's not the point.
The point is to...
1. Become honest with yourself about what you truly desire
2. Be transparent about it
3. Open up to the millions of possible ways how it can manifest
When I connect to my true desires and I am not shying away from who I am, but I can share them transparently with others, this is when something bigger is being activated for my desires to be met. HOW it will be manifested is a mystery, and I don't need to know.
I trust life that it weaves my PATH in exactly the right way, and that desires are nothing less than a guiding light on this path. I can just relax and enjoy the ride with the whole range of experiences that life has in store for me from the moment I declare "this is what I want!" And I grow, heal, expand, fall and stand up again, and learn so much about myself and life.
At some point, I started longing for a deeper Tantric connection than what was possible in my relationship. I deeply love and honor Dylan, and we both acknowledge that his intimate desires are in a different realm now, not matching mine. Also beautiful and alive, yet different.
Is it a problem?
We could make a problem out of it, but instead we created an incredible opportunity together.
We shared our desires with each other, we accepted our differences, we did a ritual together for our desires to be met and we committed to support each other in the way that would feel good for both of us as a couple. In full trust and transparency.
We looked at our relationship structure and even though monogamy still had an element that we wanted to keep (no physical sex with others), we opened ourselves to millions of other possibilities for connection.
And you know what? It brought us even closer together.
I don't remember us sleeping so intertwined nose to nose and heart to heart with each other as since we've decided to open up.
Freedom & Trust to explore what each of us desires coupled with Commitment & Love for each other. This is HUGE. It strikes the cord in my heart so deep like never before.
Our closest family members raised eyebrows when we shared it with them. "Live fully and have nothing to hide" is my motto in life. I grant them time and space that they need to digest this as it doesn't fit the classical cultural narrative they are living by.
And in the meantime, great stuff is happening for both of us as we are tapping into our exploration in the most pure and beautiful way.
I just had a 2-days Tantric exchange with a beautiful soul 1:1 last week, which was so magnificent and expansive. Grateful not only that I can do it, but that I can explore my deepest intimate desires while being next to my partner, literally meters away from each other, in my own home temple. And then to re-connect and share this all with Dylan at the end of the day, and celebrate our deep love for each other that expresses itself also like this now.
Dylan is on his own exploration journey, and it's so absolutely magnificent to witness. Following his flow, his authentic movement, shining in his aliveness. What a gift it is to be able to feel joy for his experience, without a shadow of jealousy or possessiveness.
I love you deeper than ever before, my Love.
There is nothing more magnificent than witnessing us dancing in the heart of Truth.
