I was avoiding you.
I wished I would never meet you directly.
I still did not make up my mind about you through all this time.
Sometimes I was afraid of you and treated you like a "devil".
Sometimes I secretly wished I'd meet you one day and be able to look you straight in the eyes, feel and understand your essence.
And here you are. In your full glory.
I'm happy you are here.
I feel it's the perfect timing.
Me being in the best place possible to meet you.
I feel relieved that I no longer need to live in stories about you, but got a chance to know you from direct experience.
You make my body vibrate intensely, like an undercurrent of electric stream.
You nail me down to bed without any desire to get up, even after a full night, day and another night of staying horizontal.
You give me shivers and muscle pain, alternating with feeling hot and sweating.
And at the same time, I feel that the medication is working, and the couphing has quickly been contained.
I welcome you to move through me. I'm not going to fight you, but I'm going to contain you with natural remedies and immunity boosting substances some of which I have been preparing. And I feel they are already at work, neutralizing your intensity.
I am excited to have a conversation with you today, to get to know you better. What's your purpose? What's your need? What's your essence? I hope you'll be open with me, .
