How I came in contact with Tantra...
Some years ago, I was in a relationship where we lost intimacy with each other. It was all great in the beginning, actually so great hard to believe, and one day it all collapsed. Of course, it did not happen in one day, but in my perception it was from one day to the other. Both me and my partner were quite devastated about it but we could not find our way back to each other. My search started to find a solution...
Only later, through Tantra I learned that I overstepped my own boundaries in that relationship many times and my flow closed down. And healing for me was to learn to listen to my body, its Yes and its No, to quit any pleasing and be true to myself.
My first contact with Tantra was by chance when I visited my friend in Berlin. It was on my birthday and she just got a new boyfriend who was a Tantra masseur. She asked me if I'd appreciate a present in the form of a Tantra massage. I knew nothing about Tantra at that time and my curious mind led me to say "Yes!"
What I experienced in that 3-hour massage ritual did not compare to anything I ever felt in my body before. It was like he was massaging me to the depth of my cells, through my cells, with some invisible powerful energy. I could not understand what I was feeling as it was so new. I even looked at his hands several times to check if he had some kind of device plugged to his hands. At the end of that session I was flying so high, visiting countless universes. That massage changed my perception of the body & consciousness completely and forever! 😄
Interestingly that a couple of months later, on Corfu I met a woman who later became my friend. She started teaching Tantra not so long before our encounter. I wanted to receive a massage from her too, but my body could not. I blocked. My "mom" was right in my face and this is where my healing started with my mother. Thanks to that realization and the inner work that I have done, the relationship with my mom can't compare today to anything we ever had before. From this Tantrika friend I learned something else that was very precious... to be in and with nature, to swim in cold sea, to sleep under the sky, to spend time in silence. She challenged me to stay true to myself.
Both encounters had a very profound impact on me and I got fascinated by Tantrikas and wanted to learn everything about it from then on.
At a certain point, thanks to deep exploration of Tantra, the superficial search for meaning and answers stopped as I started sinking deeper and deeper into my body and from there the whole inner Universe started opening up. The answers that emerged from that place were of a totally different quality.💗🙏
