Mama, <a whole long enthusiastic sharing>...
In the middle of it she looked away and said in a different tone "I missed you, mama, so much."
And then she continued her first sharing as if nothing happened looking back at me.
Now she lies next to me in bed...
"May I touch you, mama?"
"May I hold your hand?"
I kiss her forehead and stroke her, and she is like a hungry kitten can't get enough touch. Falling asleep takes three times longer than 10 days ago.
Seeing this and feeling her, my mother’s heart is on fire. With all the best support from the family - best grandparents here, I feel her having missed us more than other times.
Before, I was often the only one away, and Dylan would be with her. Since August, both Dylan and I go away. Retreats became twice longer.
What to do?
For now it’s clear - showering her with a lot of touch and love.
And for next retreat in November, maybe ask grandparents to bring her to us a couple of times so she can spend time with us? Till now we’ve being having video calls every couple of days with her while away.
Other ideas?
