Feeling so inspired and in awe of the synchronicities that start happening, after allowing space and time for re-alignment, which felt like mini death again.
The liminal space is familiar by now. It happens more and more often, every about 2 years. You never know how long it will last and what will be the outcome of it. It doesn’t scare me any more, even though it’s nature is still discomfort (of not knowing). It comes as a need to step back and re-assess “Do I live my life in line with who I am today, or has it become a consequence of the momentum that was true in the past, but no longer?”
If ever I’m no longer enjoying this life, I stop and ask myself this blunt question “who the F.ck am I living it for?” It invites me to look deep into the core of myself, a place where only truth can survive.
The process keeps unfolding and I start recognising clear Yes and No again, feeling the courage building to step out of familiar rails.
I forgave myself and people from the past, embracing all that happened with Love. Thank you for the lessons. The biggest one being “don’t take things personally, because it almost never is & let everyone, yourself included, to fuck it up!”.
Re-aligning in relationship. Finally, we celebrate tangible fruits from walking through some real fire and challenges last year that felt like a never-ending proof that we were destined to walk apart soon. Certain deep misalignments made me question viability of our relationship, and yet Love kept us looking into every last possibility that we still could align. Grateful to the guides we sourced to support us, because without them we would not have made it. One of them loves saying that “70% of divorces are not necessary”.
I will gladly share all our learnings soon. It’s been super vulnerable. There is so much wisdom in all that happened. The state of the primary relationship(s)… F.CK, it impacts everything! All areas of life. Such a relief to feel trust again and be able to look each other in the eyes and feel where we are now.
A conversation with a friend today was a BIG confirmation of being plugged in to the Source socket again. We’ve talked for almost 3 hours and I did not even notice how time passed, and what we shared was aligned to our deepest longings.
A heavy glass lamp falling in the middle of the night, right in front of the door of our daughter’s room reminding about the finiteness of life. Any moment can be our last one. Gosh.
A sleepless night is yet another sign.
I’m ALIVE.
Happy to be awake after drifting astray through own “success” and not realising it earlier. My curiosity is back alive, I feel butterflies in my tummy and a strong desire to live this crazy possibility called LIFE fully!
I AM FREE and have always been.
