What's happening in my life lately is FASCINATING.
It all started with a SÄX MAGIC ritual in one of my programs and channeling energy into manifesting a whole NEW level of co-creation with my partner.
I remember a huge rising of ECSTATIC ENERGY happening!
Literally next day, after the program ended, I went into the biggest FIRE ever.
It's like all my sanity was blown away and all I felt was huge RAGE passing through my veins!
My partner and I ended up screamed our guts OUT.
About everything we compromised with each other!
Everything we hated but learned to accept!
Every f.cking untruth!
We revealed our darkest parts, through WORD and ACTION.
We touched each other's Achilles hills, the most vulnerable parts... with a sword!
It lasted for 3 consecutive days (we allowed this huge FIRE only when our daughter was away!).
The HOTTEST days in my whole life.
In all truth, this did create a huge rupture in our relationship. For many days, it felt like it could never heal again.
At some moments, I even doubted if we would actually survive this one.
We did not make any decisions or conclusions in that FIRY state, nor in the days after.
We just sat with that huge pain we both felt.
We were destroyed... on a certain level.
As a couple we knew ourselves to be.
But oh my GOD... it was so much WORTH IT!
That very same FIRE kept working and transforming both of us in the days that followed.
Transforming us in TRUTH.
No way we were going to compromise anything again after that BURNING RAGE nearly annihilated us.
It WOKE ME UP to the smallness I defaulted into in this relationship assuming that this is the way how my partner would feel safer being with me, and this would align us on a deeper level sooner.
Dah! It was creating exactly the OPPOSITE.
The only important thing is to FOLLOW MY TRUTH, MY SOUL'S CALLING.
All the rest will align by itself.
And if it doesn't, then it's not meant to be, and this is also alignment.
The same rage kept burning further into the CORE of myself, uncovering the voice that wanted to SPEAK. It wanted to SPEAK without limitations. Not only in my programs and to my students, but beyond.
Anywhere, anytime.
And this is what kicked my ass to start recording video's with things that want to be said, and start sharing them out in the open.
I am still learning this new way to express myself, connecting to the larger field of energy rather than a circle of students, but EVERY CELL of mine is confirming that it's the right direction. And it also feels just one of the first next steps.
As for Dylan, he realized that his compassionate and agreeable manner was a disguise for his cowardness to live his TRUTH and stand in his both Dark & Light.
What happened between us shook him to the CORE.
He could not laugh or even smile for many days after the fire seized, but two days ago, we both laughed from our GUTS, we jumped like monkeys, and made ourselves so RIDICULOUS!!!
I screamed at him that he had PINK HAIR! And he screamed other nonsense back at me! OMG that was the biggest PARTY ever.
What I see in him now is "NO F..CKING way I am going to do anything again that doesn't feel RIGHT!" And so much more!
YEAH baby, now we are talking.
And.. who is THIS really?
Sacred RAGE
You could have burnt us to ashes, but you gave us a NEW life.
This is how you call me to surrender to my own CREATION - my f...cking Goddess!
With love,
Alexa Mira
