Almost 2,5 months of silence from my side on this channel. And now I finally know and ready to share WHY.
Last weekend, I held Module 3 "Unleash Your Ecstatic Potential" and on the last day of the retreat we did a practice around SELF-WORTH. I was doing a DEMO for participants and at some point fear arose very strongly. When I felt into it, I understood that it was fear of feeling unworthy to be TRULY HAPPY and TRULY FULFILLED. The fear was also linked to the danger of it, as if I could be destroyed for it, as if it was a taboo, not allowed.
Suddenly, all pieces fell together. It's exactly since about 3 months that I'm experiencing incredible deep alignment, happiness and fulfillment. It is present inside of me and touches on all areas of my life: my relationship with Dylan, my Tantra work, me being a Mother, and other areas of my life. I am living exactly what my SOUL ever wished for.
On the day of Dylan's grandma funeral in October, after the ceremony, Dylan, Alisia and I went for a walk in the park. We felt serene. We both have reflected about our life during the 2-hour farewell ceremony as the church was filled with light and beautiful female choir. In the park, we looked each other in the eyes, and we almost said the same words "Darling, there is much more to this life than what we have been allowing until now." We were so aligned in our aspirations, and after a lot of talking, dreaming and crying, we opened up for a possibility to attract the 3rd energy into our relationship. It felt so right for both of us.
It took only two months and the right ENERGY showed up in the form and shape of a Woman. Ever since, all 3 of us, being in complete transparency and open communication about our desires and aspirations, are in a vortex of huge expansion into LOVE. If you told me that I'd be in a constellation like this just even half a year ago, and that I'd be expanding in Love in such a constellation, I'd laugh you out. The isness of it is hard for me at times to describe with words. We take it moment by moment, and each moment is so RICH with gifts for all of us, and beyond us. I'll share much more about it soon.
My Tantra work is blossoming to the degree I could not wish for. I literally live my dream as my daily occupation shifted more towards leading LIVE retreats. I've been holding programs every 2 weeks since a few months already and without promoting or even announcing programs, people seem to find their way to Temple of Tantric Arts. A new retreat center is being finished these very weeks and will be ready by the end of April. Dylan came back into the space and is gently landing into co-leading retreats with me, which feels incredibly right.
All of this shows me in real life how this Universe functions by RESONANCE. What I AM is what I attract.
But who am I to be happy?
Who am I to be deeply fulfilled?
The self-worth practice demo confronted me with the fact that deep down I didn't feel I am worthy of it, hence my long silence on social media and in my Newsletters. And even if I am worthy, what if I hurt others with this happiness? What if I make people envious? It felt dangerous. It felt like I could be destroyed for this. All these layers of deep conditioning have been moving through me as I looked at making the experience of my happiness smaller than it was, trying to dim it for the external world, afraid to show it.
Finding VOICE to name it and show it now feels so liberating!
It makes me want to scream to the whole world: don't be afraid to be HAPPY & FULFILLED!!!!
You are and I am WORTHY of it by the mere fact that we are ALIVE!
With love
Alexa Mira
Expansion into LOVE
