The feeling of gratitude is overflowing me.
Each day I wake up in wonder that I am ALIVE, that I can see, that I can breath, that I can participate in this life in ANY way I choose.
It's all up to me how I relate to things, how I perceive things. In wonder or in resistance, in awe or in judgement. None is better than the other - it's all my creation anyway.
I am the one making it easy or difficult for myself.
In every moment, I have a choice to follow my truth or to twist it.
I know that in some dozens of years (or maybe already much sooner, who knows) I will not be living any more. At least not in this body. I've been present to this since teenage, and it humbles me to witness yet another day being alive and having the freedom to Be and to Create.
Each time I drive to my house here in Limburg, I pass by an old cemetery and a funeral home, where you can see how many people died in our town recently by the number of pictures exposed in the window. People regularly line up to say good bye's to the people they once knew alive and after that they continue living their lives...
If before witnessing this would make me sad, now I am present to inevitability of death and therefore to the preciousness of every moment that I am alive. Alive with all the tastes of experiences that this life brings.
Some nights now I can't sleep and I can be either upset, judgmental and complaining about it, OR grateful to have this uncomfortable experience now and from there also still have the freedom to complain ))). Maybe it's for the first and last time in my life it's happening, and how amazing it is that I can relate to this phenomenon of sleepless nights from a direct experience.
I feel gratitude for my partner being true to himself and me being true to myself, and from there us relating to each other.
I feel gratitude as I drive through a busy town.
I feel gratitude shopping for daily stuff.
I feel gratitude creating food in my kitchen.
I feel gratitude tasting my rooibos tea.
I feel gratitude when interacting with my students.
I feel gratitude for so many little things... the abundance of life is present in each little moment. 💞
